The new beginning?

My dreams shattered, my thoughts scattered

What am I waiting for, living for, breathing for?

The air? All this vacuum in despair?

I haven’t felt love for ages, where are all the sages?

And saints must have lost their brains because nothing

Nothing makes sense now,

War is starting, while people are celebrating

Peace

I’d love to be on the beaches of Nice

Or Biarritz and be reborn again without pain

But everything seems so complicated so intertwined in this world

Nothing works in one accord,

Only money laundering and slaughtering seem to do just fine

Why I feel like nothing is really mine?

Am I swine without spine crossing the line?

Religions divide and inflict pain

While science does just the same

Night grows in dark colors and warm wind waters my eyes

Gosh, how I love summer, I love its fragrance in the skies

In the depth of my sleeping soul and forsaken heart

I always recall Sarajevo and my pledge to myself which was the start

How I felt I want to help to built peace and prevent the next war

But every other month there is one knocking on the door

Is my only problem that I guess I hate my self?

For not living up to my own dreams with all this sins

Of omission everyday, in this place I don’t want to stay

Why I can’t work harder, quicker, better?

Am I working just for another cashmere sweater?

The soft wind always whispers to my ears colors of night

While being on my balcony I melt and can see the light

Candlelight cigars and all the bars end up just as memories of bright light

And I hope that after this night comes the day where we don’t need to fight

But am I right?

8.8.2008